Wednesday, May 10, 2006 . 5/10/2006 07:15:00 PM
I wan be happy, really.. but it seem tat my heart dun wan be happy, why??? It is sinking down and down every second and i cant hold it back... So pity... I was so pity....Exam, English... Haha.. I am going to mad!!!! Who say muz pass English??? I am so worry about it, even i cant breath... I wan to cry, but nobody noe... My heart is crying, only i can feel... i juz feel not me pity, my heart even pity than me... it muz suffer pain and lonely.... Outside is dark nw, it is the time everyday i feel lonely, coz no body accompany me... my mother go to work haven come back... Sometime i will think about i come singapore is right choice or not... then if i didnt come, how could i be??? I also dun noe..
Nobody noe what am i thinking about.. Nobody really noe me here... Nobody really care about me, except my mother...
In front all of u, maybe i am a happy but a bit blur girl... maybe some time u all say me childish...
But behind of u, stop at this second, i am a helpless and lonely girl... Which one is real me? i also dun noe... maybe stress make me think too much, so i write so much rubbish... I am also a rubbish..., it is the one nobody notice...
No, i am not a rubbish, i cannot let my mother down... i am useful.. haha.. i muz be happy...
Juz nw chat wif my china friend, he is the first boy who treat me well in china, though it is a short period of time, but i wil remember... we didnt talk too much, coz my com keep dc.. Maybe we didnt see each other nearly one year, so i dun have so much things to talk wif him... since i come back singapore last yr, he nearly out my dictionary... not coz i am tat kind of person, it is coz sometime forget something is better than remember..
I muz be happy from nw on, ignore what i write in front... i am always a happy girl, rite? yes, i am a happy girl, haha.....=p
Jia you,yanfei.... JIA YOU!!!!!!